Xenophobia and Mystical Experience

Terror and Mystical Experience

“Guest Blogger: Vegter Animus.  Read more of his articles on ProjectiAmYouBlog.wordpress.com

It has long been documented that mystical experiences have often been accompanied by terror at the onset, as well as the fear that one is about to die from such an experience.  Many of the prophets in the Bible write about their initial terror at the sight of other-worldly angels.  People who have mystical experiences in modern times, either as a result of a near-death experience, induced by fervent meditation or assisted by entheogens, have also reported such fears.

I have personally experienced terror along my path.  Although many hippies and yoga instructors go on and on about the blissful states that you can reach through spiritual pursuits, I have learned from a number of credible shamans and gurus that you first have to mitigate the shadows along the path before you gain entry into these sort of nirvana-like states.  The reason for this is because we all hold onto baggage and negativity that weigh us down.  These lower vibrational states literally hold us back.  We have to detox or purge these things from our minds before we are able to experience the higher states.  See Abdi Assadi’s book Shadows on the Path for more insight.

Shifting Paradigms

A major part of this terror is rooted in the left-brain dominated Western worldview and paradigm.  This worldview is characterized by a habit pattern of categorizing, compartmentalizing and generally segregating all that can be perceived into structures and models that can easily be organized into existing systems.  The inherent problem with this mode of interacting with reality, when taken to the extreme, as has occurred in America and many Western nations, is made apparent each and every time a new “discovery” is made.  It is impossible to organize new information into a framework that does not already exist, nor is it possible anticipate the consequence of such information. We saw this with Einstein’s theory of relativity and the Newton’s theory of gravity.

When our mind is dominated by left-brain thinking we meet with resistance every step of the way towards greater knowledge and spiritual realization.  Right-brain thinking, on the other hand, accepts new evidence without judgment and valuation and allows the information to speak for itself.  I liken this to the penetration of rain through the dense canopy of the rainforest.  Our Western mode of agriculture would dictate that we need to clear mass areas of rainforest so that our crops can get adequate sunlight and rain. However, nature finds a way to thrive regardless of this condition which Western science would deem “less than favorable” in relation to our preconceived goal.  Plants of all variety grow on all levels of the rainforest, from the floor to the branches and even at the tops of the canopy.

Right-brain thoughts flow where information naturally fits.  Right-brain theory finds the area of least resistance and just as easily discards those ideas and concepts which no longer seem to work.  But because of our arrogance and ego, we find scientific epiphanies and spiritual evolution progressing at a snail’s pace relative to the rate of progress we would experience with greater detachment from an already existing set of theories or notions. See “What is Ego” for more information on how to free yourself from the ego.

Terror is a common emotional byproduct of mystical experiences but it takes much longer to overcome this emotion in left-brain dominate cultures.  Once the initial terror is conquered through the conscious process of surrender, this gives way to much more complex and, some would say, “beautiful” experiences.  See Dissolving the Ego.

Compassion, Love & the Mystical

The surest way to overcome terror is not by waging a war against it. This only spirals off into fractal reverberations of more terror. Rather, one must learn to cultivate compassion and love for everything, even that which you may think of as negative forces or evil.  The dark cannot combat the dark.  Only the light can do that.

During my own mystical experience, I came to the epiphany that that which I was terrified of was merely an aspect of myself which I had closed off and hidden away from awareness, qualities and aspects of myself that I had tried to ignore at all costs.  After this realization, I surrendered to compassion.

My gut reaction (as a result of years of habit) was to struggle against it but I was amazingly lucid and sensitive during this ordeal.  I could feel myself struggling against myself in ways that literally hurt.  Like a dog that had been chasing its own tail and had caught it in its mouth and had begun gnawing away.  When I sent out love and compassion, I felt these aspects of myself heal and reintegrate back into my psyche so as to give way to more healthy expressions of my previously repressed nature.  I’m sure Freud would have a lot to say about this if I were laying on his couch telling him what you are reading now.

I hope this has helped in some way with the personal struggles that you may be dealing with.  The spiritual path is not always rainbows and sunshine.  Many saints and gurus know this.  Just remember, “Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.”

Until next time,


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Another Interest – Restoring Photos of Loved Ones

  I have no idea why I waited so long to display an example of my photo restoration projects.  The work is very time consuming, but fruitful.  If you have any photos you’d like me to restore, contact me @ … Continue reading

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This repost from “On The Heath” is the essence of the message I, too, have come to realize: we are meant to be united.  Great work, I of July!

Originally posted on On The Heath :

Relationships in all their forms
in modern human history
have been contractual.
And they affect not only humanity
but also the rest of nature.
Most questionable however,
are not the social or commercial
but the emotional contracts.
My reference to man as separate from nature is proof of that.
Heedlessly fragmenting
as if man is not nature.

Knowing all that
still I somewhat hope to communicate,
to ‘establish’ a relationship with you.
But relationships as they exist
stand on the foundation of division.
So when we emotionally disconnect from one another,
and let’s suppose for the sake of stress
indeed from the rest of nature,
we cease to be one with it
just as a tree gives you breath
and you know it but you’re unaware of it.

We cease to be one with each other;
warring and all sorts when we feel
like suspending or terminating the contract.

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Curtain # 2: The Mystery Behind the Elohim

Ziggurat of UR


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Note: Most of my information was derived from “Genesis of the Grail Kings,” by late author Laurence Gardner (pages 32-36).


Before you dare look behind today’s curtain, please know that I mean no disrespect to you or any religion.  I’m not here to offend.  What I am here for, is to share some “hidden” or suppressed historical details, that if taken as a possibility, can open galactic sized doors towards a better understanding of our place in this universe.  Simply put: I’m here to provide a gentle nudge for you to take a look at how we got here today.  Before you can really look, you must decide to temporarily suspend your beliefs (don’t worry, the truth can survive without me or you) before you can contemplate a different perspective: not better, not superior, nor holier, just different.  If you’re not ready to temporarily suspend your beliefs, please do not proceed, for you’ll just hurt yourself.  However, if you are, then without further ado…

Most average Bible readers may know that Moses himself did not write the Torah (Hebrew for Law) or Pentateuch (Greek for five-part-work), but they are believed to be inspired from the teachings of Moses.  The first part of Genesis was not written until 6 BC.  What happened in 6 BC?  Why the Israelites were taken captive by Babylon (Iraq, formerly known as Sumeria).

Most average Bible readers know that Abram lived with his father, Terah, in the land of UR.  What some don’t know is that UR was part of the Sumerian city-state in ancient Mesopotamia. 

Why is this important?  Because from Adam to Abram, they all were Sumerians.  And they all worshipped a group or pantheon of gods.  Don’t get rattled by this, please.  Read on.

Abram’s father served in the massive Ziggurat temple in UR as a high priest.  The Sumerians worshipped a pantheon, or group of gods and goddesses, that they called, you guessed it, Elohim!  What Bible scholars know, is that the second Creation story (Gen 2:5-25) is attributed to an author called the Javhist.  Why?  Because, he replaced the Sumerian pantheon term Elohim, with JHWH, which became Yahweh, and later Jehovah.  In Canaanite culture, thanks to Noah’s grandson, Canaan, the term Elohim was plural for El or Eloh, which by interpretation means “Lord” or “Lofty One.”

If you’ve followed me, you can see that in Genesis 3:5 (For God doth know that in the day ye eat thereof, then your eyes shall be opened, and ye shall be as gods, knowing good and evil. – King James Bible), the word “gods” in the original language is Elohim.

What’s even more incredible, is that, according to Canaanite religion, El Elyon was married to Astoreth, and one of their son’s name was Baal.  Yes, Jehovah’s wife was called Astoreth!  For El and Jehovah are one and the same.  As a matter of fact, none of these associations were known until recently.  It wasn’t until 1929, when a vast library of ancient texts was uncovered in the ancient city of Ugarit (now called Ras Shamra, located in north-western Syria), which shed much light on the early Canaanite religious system.  The writings, dating back around 1400 BC, identifies El Elyon’s consort as  Asherah (or Astoreth).

According to author Laurence Gardner, early Canaanite writings found in 1929, indicate that El Elyon governed from a place “at the headwaters of the two rivers (the Tigris and Euphrates).  From this same place, El Elyon would receive ambassadors and settle disputes.  His principal son was Baal (Lord), along with his other brothers Yamm, Mot, Shahar and Shalem (from which we get Yuru-shalem (Jerusalem)”

Are you seeing the connections? 

So, did the early Israelites worship El Elyon, Baal, and Asherah?  Yes!  The early Israelites worshipped their god, goddess, and Baal, the principal son.  Essentially, the early Hebrews were polytheistic, just like the rest of the world.

When did this change?  Not until about 1060 B.C. (See 1 Sam 7:4)  And, even though early writers replaced the Canaanite term Elohim (gods) with Jehovah, it still does not negate the fact that both the Canaanites and Israelites both worshipped Elohim!  Why even the name Israel is really IS-RA-EL, which can be interpreted as Soldier of EL.  And, I also noticed that many of the Angel names end in –EL:

  • GAB-RI-EL = Hebrew for “Strong Man of EL”
  • MI-CHA-EL = Hebrew for “Who is like EL”

Another name for El Elyon is IL or, according to the Sumerians, EN-LIL.  Another Canaanite name for El Elyon is El Shaddai (Lord of the Mountain).

Linguistic Connection between Enlil and Allah.


Source: http://www.abovetopsecret.com/forum/thread952658/pg4&mem=

Hopefully, my gentle nudge does not come across as a push instead.  But, before you close your eyes, I have one last point.

What is the best way to ensure that a people created to serve a pantheon of gods, stayed under the control of the few gods over the many people?  By each “god” demonizing and outlawing polytheism among the naïve earthlings.  How clever and devious!

Our creators knew that once we believe a thing, as part of our power, we would make it so!

Imagine, a people creating their own prisons from the very faith that they believe is their freedom!  Remember, lies become truth to those who FIRMLY believe it.  And, the only ones who suffer are the followers; the reapers are the so called gods!  Think about it!  Each god placed an imaginary wall around their followers called “monotheism.”  And these same gods, who themselves are not gods, but advanced beings, use fear and the threat of a nonexistent heaven or hell to keep 7 billion people divided and conquered.

It’s impossible for any one person to pierce your beliefs!  I’d never try.

So, instead, I appeal to that part of you that senses that we were meant to do more than just endure religious wars, famine and inequality.

My fellow earthlings of all faiths and persuasions, all of us have been duped or hoodwinked in one way or another!  I implore you to take the best of your religion that promotes universal peace, and cast away everything that promotes division and hate, and let’s find our own path to a higher place of peace and enlightenment.  We can become our own Elohim!

Please come back for the next installment.  Until then, peace be with you and yours forever!

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Curtain # 1: Follow the White “Monatomic Gold” Bricks



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 When I was about five or six years old, my father was an airman stationed overseas, and my young mother and us, her six children, all stayed with her mother, in Indianapolis, Indiana.  At night all of the kids slept in the same room, in the same bed, with the exception of our one-week old brother, John,who slept in his crib.  One summer night, I awoke to go to the restroom.  I climbed over one of my siblings and made my way to the bathroom.  On the way, I stopped by my infant brother’s crib to see if he was okay.  As I stared down at him, I noticed something like illuminated fog, swirling against the wall over his crib.  Transfixed by this strange sight, I froze in place like a statue until the image came into focus.  There were three men with distressed faces and all dressed in friar robes, looking down at my infant brother.  Somehow I knew they were passing some type of judgment over him. I continued to just stare at them until my bladder commanded my attention.  I quickly went to the bathroom, did my business, and made my way back to the bedroom through pitch blackness, more by memory than sight.  Once inside the room, I veered near the crib to see if the three men were still staring down at my baby brother.  Sure enough, there they were, as still as a picture.

Suddenly, one of the three men quickly turned to look me straight in the eyes.

It startled me so, I dashed over to the bed and quickly found a free spot to hide until morning.

That next morning I awoke to what sounded like a grown man coughing.  Alarmed, I got up to find the source of the coughing.  I found my mother standing where I stood the night before, near the crib.

The image of the three men’s stern faces hit me.

I asked my mother what was wrong.  She said, “Oh, he’s just got the whooping cough.”  I didn’t know what that was, but the more I heard him cough, the more concerned I became.

The three men’s faces hung over me like a cloud.  I said, “Mommy.  Please take him to the hospital!  Please, mommy!”

“He’ll be okay,” she said.

“No,” I interrupted, “please take him to the hospital.  Something’s wrong!”  At that point, I began to repeatedly yank on her skirt.

Getting a bit perturbed at my insistence, my mother scolded me and said, “Go outside and play!  He’ll be okay.”

My four-year old brother, Steven, and I went outside with our grandmother.  It was a beautiful sunny day, as we followed our grandmother across the street so she could chat with her neighbor.  Steven and I found something to do, when I realized all they wanted to talk about was growing flowers and grapes.

I am very nearsighted, so when my mother came out of the house across the street carrying our infant brother in her arms, I thought she was smiling.  My grandmother said, “What’s wrong?”  Her tone cut through my joy like a razor, making me squint in order to catch a better glimpse of my mother’s face.  Yes, something was wrong.  As we all ran toward my mother, I heard her sobbing so hard, she could not speak.  She held the lifeless infant in her arms and just stood there helpless in anguish.  My grandmother lifted the infant from my mother’s arm, then she told my mother to run around the corner to a nearby relative who had a phone (back in the early 60s, not everyone had a phone in their homes).

Little John was pronounced dead upon arrival to the hospital.

My heart broke that day.  I never forgot that vision or the aftermath of a caution gone unheeded.

Since that day, I’ve had many revelations, dreams, visions and “knowings” as some people call it.  And, some of them were joyful even.

I am no stranger to the supernatural.

My biggest revelation (or so I thought at the time) came on April 20, 1977.  While stationed overseas as an army solder, I dedicated my life to Christ.  Soon afterwards, I was baptized in the Holy Spirit and began to have holy visions, dreams, signs and  wonders.  Everyone called me a prophet.

Once, in a Bible Study with some Christian brothers  in 1977, I raised a question about one passage, Genesis 2:10-11:

“And a river went out of Eden to water the garden; and from thence it was parted, and became into four heads.

And the name of the first is Pison: that is it which compasseth the whole land of Havilah, where there is gold.”

I asked them, “Why in the world would God care about gold?”  I was told, “Well, you see, the streets of heaven are paved in gold, blah, blah, blah!”  And, another brother chimed in “blah, blah blah.”  None of their attempts to explain or dismiss my question hit the “truth” spot in my spirit.

Since then, I’ve had some ups and downs, and experienced some powerful moves of the Holy Spirit.  But, a few personal things never changed, and a few questions lingered about the Bible.

Time moved on…

On Tuesday, October 30, 2012, very early in the morning I found myself in that state between a dream and awake, and some of what I heard was “Valkyrie.  Black Energy; Universal Wave Force.  Space Travel possible through people learning to tap into this energy and projecting themselves through space.” 

I went to my computer to find anything that would help explain what I heard. As I searched for this energy source that could enable space travel, I found myself exploring properties of monatomic gold (gold processed until it becomes a white powder).  Noted author of Genesis of the Grail Kings, Laurence Gardner gives a short explanation about some monatomic gold applications: youth, anti-gravity capabilities and interdimensional travel, to name a few(a full description for those hungry for more details).

Another shocking discovery was the Custodians, as labeled by Gardner, or the Anunnaki, per Zecharia Sitchin.  Just who were these Anunnaki, I wondered.  I stumbled upon the late Zecharia Sitchin’s videos on YouTube, where he patiently, with bits of humor, shared his theories and beliefs about the Anunnaki and their involvement with the collection of monatomic gold from the Persian Gulf region, followed by extensive mining in what’s now South Africa.  The miners were Anunnaki.  Their labor became so unbearable after hundreds of years, they began to murmur and complain.  While in South Africa, one of the Anunnaki leaders, Enki or EA, along with his son and half-sister, genetically manipulated the DNA of early hominids (See Genesis Revisited) to create homo sapiens (to become the new gold miners), then homo sapiens sapiens (as more advanced workers and rulers)

After watching about 20 videos on the topic, I soon realized that I could get lost in the diverse theories floating across the Web, so I opted instead to begin my “Esoteric” library, beginning with Zecharia Sitchin and Laurence Gardner.

While reading Genesis Revisited, I chose to suspend my belief system, because Mr. Sitchin fully answered my question concerning “gold” and Genesis 2:10-11, among many other things I wondered about.

I now know there’s more than one God, and that our languages were cleverly designed to offend other earthlings, to keep us divided.  I am convinced that we’re probably the creation of advanced beings (even the Anunnaki) who visited the earth to mine for gold, so they could convert it into monatomic gold to help heal their planetary atmosphere.

Nonetheless, I retained some good things from Christianity, such as loving your neighbor as you love yourself.  That’s why I’m writing this blog.  I love you enough to share my testimony of my awakening.

It’s my hope and dream that in the near future we will truly find unity by stepping over our religious, political and territorial differences.  Once we cast down our walls made of smoke and mirrors, we’ll find ways to unlock our true potential and set a path of greatness beyond our dreams. 

Are you ready to look behind the curtain and see the true identity of your wizard?  They’re just a Kansas flimflam peddling division, misinformation and partial truths?

It’s time to WAKE UP!

Genesis Revisited

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A Forgotten Remedy for Cancer?


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Disclaimer: Please DO NOT self-prescribe any treatment for any life threatening diseases; always seek the opinion of multiple medical professionals before making your final treatment decision.

A woman dreamt of one day buying a farm with the money she inherited from her mother.  The dream was interrupted by some unpleasant news: cancer.

After a  few treatments, this same woman noticed that half of her inheritance was already gone!  But she still had all of the cancer!

This may sound like fiction but it happened to Patti Tyree, as posted online, Feb 26, 2012.  The article goes on to say that some new drugs cost $100,000 per year.  And, that’s one treatment among many.

Among the many proposed cancer treatments, one cancer doctor (oncologist) proposed treatment using a household substance that not only diminishes cancer, but he claims it can actually cure cancer!

Italian oncologist, Dr. Tullio Simoncini, in 2008, created quite a stir in the medical community when he produced proof that his use of sodium bicarbonate (baking soda) on several patients positively cured the cancer in a few weeks.

Dr. Simoncini alleges that he’s a victim of a misinformation campaign in an attempt to discredit his rediscovery of baking soda against cancer.

This remedy may seem too good to be true, but if it’s true, think of the time and money it could save a person.

As expected, naysayers are many, and maybe rightly so.  In late 2008, one young mother lost her life after seeking baking soda treatment from Dr. Simoncini to cure her breast cancer.  In this article, “10 Persistent Cancer Myths Debunked” Mar 24, 2014, a United Kingdom Cancer Research Center seeks to refute persistent cancer curing myths, to include baking soda.  However, it seems that there is evidence to support the fact that in some cases, this remedy is effective.  Another advocate for baking soda against cancer is Dr. Mark Sircus.

You be the judge in this matter.  But one thing is certain: institutionalized medical treatment is very expensive.

A 2005 study by debt.org found that 46 percent of all bankruptcies filed were due to outstanding medical expenses.

My point: we need to carefully look into our near and distant past to rediscover some simple remedies to more than just physical ailments.  Please come back to my site over the next few months as I present a series on buried truths.

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The Stigma of Paid Reviews 11/19 by Page Readers | Blog Talk Radio

The Stigma of Paid Reviews 11/19 by Page Readers | Blog Talk Radio.  During this interview, I am able to tackle the controversial subject of “paid book reviews” head on, in an informative, balanced and provocative way (humble cough here).  I explore some causal factors and express my views on why Review-Worm.Com is leading the way as a 21st century catalyst for change.

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